by hannahsmom (1141 Posts), Tue Dec 08, 2009 08:02 pm
Brockner1 - how is your pregnancy going? March is just right around the corner! Thank you for asking about Brandon. He now weighs 5 pounds, 12 ounces. It's hard to believe he fell to 3 pounds after he was born. He's a big boy now! He can't eat a lot at a time, so he's waking up every hour starving. It's killing me! I know that sleep will come again someday, and it's totally worth the lack of sleep to hold a precious baby in my arms. Hannah is in love with him. All she has ever wanted in this world was a sibling.
I agree with Katie - I would not be holding a precious baby in my arms if it weren't for the PF. I would have never in a million years even considered a second pregnancy if it weren't for the positive stories of second pregnancies that I read about on the forum. All of the encouragement was amazing. It's so nice to be able to talk with people who understand. Just the other day one of my sisters said to me..."See, isn't Brandon precious? And you didn't even WANT another baby." That statement was absoloutely not true. I was just terrified to have another baby. I always wanted another one.
Katie - I'm glad things are going better for you. I'm sorry things didn't work out as far as childcare with your mom, but I found that it was harder relying on family to care for Hannah everyday. I preferred having a babysitter. I know how you feel about not going back to work. I have been trying to devise a plan where I can cash out my retirement and stay home for a while. I have a babysitter lined up, but I want to be the one to stay with my baby everyday. But I need the money and I know I need to go back. I work for a university, and I just found out that our office is being relocated to another state to the main campus at the end of 2010, so that was a bit depressing since I love the people I work with. They found out about the relocation right after I was taken out of work in September, but they waited to tell me until after the baby was born since my blood pressure was out of control. I thought that was nice of them. I can't move, so I am just going to have to be out of a job. I am taking this as a positive sign, though, to get back into my career field of journalism. I have also been depressed about the fact that this is my last baby, and I am kicking myself for my crazy pregnancy mind asking the MFM for a tubal. I wish someone would have stopped me, but I'm the one that signed the papers. I was just so miserable being pregnant and scared out of mind due to the bp's that I swore I never wanted to go through it again. But now I hold this baby and wish I could have more. My husband is also being a major butt head and has been for the last few weeks, but I am trying to ignore him for now in order to keep my sanity. My parents have been out of town and have not been able to help with Hannah or the baby as they promised, so I have been stuck in the house since I can't take the baby out due to his preemie and low birth weight status. I am having a dilemma about Hannah's Christmas performance at school since I don't have anyone to watch the baby....I may just bundle him up and take him with me because she is so excited for me to hear her sing. I'll just have to stay away from other people at the school :)
I also have to say that Kyle is Gorgeous!!! I love the picture of you holding him and the pictures of Kyle with his Daddy. Oh - and the Santa pics are great :) I know that we are both so thankful for our Christmas miracles.