I can understand...I think that having PE is pretty horrible & when you have it PP, it freaks you out a bit further because you NEVER hear of it, anywhere (only on THESE forums on perhaps a small blurb after a brief description of PE).
I mean, you know that the "cure" for PE is delivery, but what if you have already delivered? What then? What's the cause? How did it happen? How did I fall into this extrememly rare category?
I was terrified of having a heart attack or stroke for months upon months after my PP PE experience. Every time I had a muscle pain in my left arm, neck or headache I'd worry. I'd take my BP (still do) and try to sit & do nothing. It drove me crazy.
Then I got crazy about being on BP meds (still am on them)...why do I need them? Will this be forever? I'm too young...bla bla bla...Is there something else causing this...it went on and on
WELL, I am now 20 months PP and am going to TTC again, lol So, yes, I was crazy & I'm still a bit scared...but it does get better ;0) All in time, my dear! If not, I'd look into counceling for your fears and anxiety... =0)