This one goes out to Susan - I am so sorry for the loss of your child three years ago today. And I'm also sorry about the answer that you got at that time.
The fears will always be there. I hope that you do find the best medical care possible. Someone who'll give you straight answers, really watch out for you, and who is very knowledgeable about the signs of PIH and preeclampsia. Those doctors exist; I really hope that you find one who will keep your fears at bay and help you hold onto that hope. For what it's worth, I also have chronic hypertension, and my doctor still gives my husband and I hope that we can do this again.
And as many of us have said, if you do ttc again, you'll have a lot of support here [:I]
Many hugs to you,
Norlisa Keffer(35), Washington State Coordinator / Moderator, Mothers of Multiples / Co-Moderator, Trying to Conceive
DH, Gordon (37)
Joseph/Josephine Our Angel in Heaven (9/16/02)
Mary Frances and Samuel (a.k.a. Frankie and Sammy) 38 2/7 weeks, 5/26/03, no preeclampsia during pregnancy, mom severe high blood pressure problems post-partum