I know I should wait and continue (restart
) trying to lose weight and exercise regularly, but I am so ready to try again. I have been having such vivid baby dreams:
Dream 1: I was holding a baby boy while asking my mom, "He's cute, isn't he?"
Dream 2: Once again holding a baby boy, this time he pooped so much it came out of his diaper and I had to ask my mom to hold him while I changed my shirt (lol) and got a new diaper.
Dream 3: I had a baby girl and was breast feeding her. I think I said "This is our second baby girl" and "She's hungry" during the feeding. (my favorite dream because it was certain in the dream the baby was mine)
After the dreams I feel my arms ache and feel so empty.
I am frustrated with my cycle. FF showed ovulation on day 19, but then after I entered today's temp it said that ovulation could no longer be detected! So now I'm on CD38 and no O yet. Poo. I had been hoping we would conceive naturally because I am worried about the idea of multiples with fertility treatments. I would love twins, but the increased risk of PE it would add scares me.
Anyway, this was a random rant, I know. I need to get motivated to lose weight! Also, I can't wait for the end of the year. DH and I were talking and since I work in retail, we might start trying again after the holidays. I was pregnant during the crazy Christmas season last year and I am convinced the high stress level I was experiencing may have played a part in everything. Come on 2012!