I finally convinced my husband to give it one last try for a sibling for my son. We are planning on TTC in August '13. I had set up our pre-conception appointment with my perinatologist this coming Monday. This week I started to panic, worrying about what she might say that she didn't already say last year (that if I suffered another "catastrophic" abruption, I could die)---so I cancelled the appointment.
I know I still have time to see her before August, and at one point I will---but for now I'm just too terrified, I'm somewhat in denial and I just needed to vent.
Thanks for reading.
-Elissa, January 2007: stillborn at 25 weeks, severe PE, IUGR, reverse-end diastolic flow
- Chronic hypertension as of November 2007
-missed miscarriage Feb 2009
- Ismael Jaden, June 2010, 36 wks, oligohydramnios & rising BP's, my wonderful little man & the love of my life
- Janelle, September 2011, 24wks, 3days. Placental abruption, stillborn