It's been 4 1/2 years since my experience with PE. My story was not particularly horrendous although it was traumatic for me at the time. I always thought that I wanted another child at some point, and my husband has finally begun to express his desire for another child as well. I was really excited that we could start planning. Even though part of me was scared, having made the decision left me feeling a bit more calm - like maybe making the decision was the hard part.
I had an appointment with my OB last week and we briefly discussed the plan. I was slightly surprised that he did not feel that there was any pre-pregnancy "homework" to be done in the way of testing for underlying conditions, or getting my bp under a bit better control. His attitude seems to be to cross the bridge when we get to it. I want to trust him, and I want to be ignorant and believe that everything is just going to be ok somehow, but all of a sudden I seem to have lost my resolve and I'm scared again (maybe even terrified). I wonder if wanting another child is greedy when I already have 2 kids that need me. I've got a list of a million what-ifs that are killing me, and now I'm really not sure at all what we're going to do.
It's not fair to my husband for me to keep waffling back and forth, so I wonder how have the rest of you resolved a new pregnancy in your mind? Are you able to go in with an open heart and mind or do you just hope for the best?