Its been two year since I was rushed from the dr. office to the hospital for a bp of 200/120. I fought to let the steriods work for two days and on a day 3 they said enough and I delivered at 30 weeks a 2lb 14oz baby girl. She is doing Awesome and no one would ever know she was early. Love her so much! After delivery I developed HELLP. I didnt know what hellp was. I also had my kidneys shutting down, but didnt know any of this til days later when my Husband had been searching on the internet to find some answers asked the Dr. does she have hellp. He never told us much but that I did have it and everytime a new nurse checked my chart they all said, "wow you were almost DIC". I didnt know then what that meant either. Blood clots were still oozing out of my csection incision when i came home. I had the same cruddy insurance I still have and it wouldnt cover anything and the doctor knew this. He is a good guy and was well aware I didnt want to destroy my family financially(I cried telling him this). That is why I stayed in a back room in labor delivery and not moved. Okay so now two years later, still have high pressures of which I have tried several different bp meds. Seeing my regular DR. Didnt want to be on bp meds at all but that didnt work out. Finally found one that works and that I can function on. Started having liver pains, they swore it was my gallbladder, so went in for ultrasound. Said it looked like a fatty liver. Did a CAT scan of the upper adominal and Dr still says its a fatty liver. I am overweight and I really feel like that blinds the dr a little. He hadnt even heard of hellp when I went to him. I have a huge deductable and the cat and ultra not to mention the bills from the hospital from two years ago has taken all my savings. I need to know what test I really need? How do I know what damage is from the Hellp and kidney failure? How do I not go into massive debt to get answers? I feel so bleepin frustrated. Its like okay what will kill me first, the liver, the kidneys, the heart, a stoke?! I am eating healthy and I have lost some weight, working on trying to do better for my life. I dont want to die in the next 10 years! I feel like my body is fighting me everyday. If its not being overly tired, its being dizzy, or side pain. ARG! What can I do to get the right help and some real answers? (yes I am kinda grippen here) Thanks for putting up with me!