I think what you are doing sounds like it brings you some comfort. For a long time, I did not know what to do with myself, but as time wore on I knew I had to live. I don't remember Tylers' actual due date since the pre-e and HELLP struck at 26 wks. March 9th will always be the day he came in to the world and my life and March 23rd will be the day he became my angel in heaven. That two week period, after 8 yrs, is still very hard for me. Along with other times throughout the year.
My family has always been there for me. My son was buried with my grandmother, who had been deceased for over 15 yrs. She adored us kids! When my grandfather was ready to join my grandmother, he told my father to add Tyler's name to the headstone, 7 yrs later. What strength that brought me to see!!! For the past three years, on Tyler's birthdate, my mother drops off a card and small gift. Usually earrings, bracelet or something that has his birthstone in it. He is with me wherever I go. Just last year I had the polaroid of Tyler blown up and have an 8x10 hanging next to my bed.
Give yourself some time and you will know what fells right!
DH, Tom (33)
Tyler 3-9-95 to 3-23-95 (26 wks pe/HELLP)
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