I can totally relate.
I had a lot of the same guilt issues(esp breastfeeding and missing her 1sts)
My advice is, try not to let those sad past issues riun any of your future moments together.
No one has a time machine!
We will always have those feelings though. And you have found a great place to share and heal.
there is hope.
I just gave birth to my second daughter on May 29th, and she was 36 weeks. We were able to room, and go home together.
She was small, but healthy.
I did get sick again, but no where near as bad, or as early.
I was so closely monitored by my awesome Doc.'s that they caught it immediately.
There are certain steps to take before concieving #2.
Like talking it over w/ your Dr. and consulting a perinatologist.(imho)
my dd#1 was in the nicu/spec care nursery for 22 days. She was just a feeder and a grower too- thank GOD.
now she is a wonderful little 17 month old toddler.
Welcome, and We look fwd to getting to know you!
DH, Chris, 33
Mama & Daddy to:
Isabella Sofia,1/02/03 born @ 33.5 weeks at 3 lbs,6oz., 16". GD,
Pre-E,& borderline HELLP.
Catalina Amelia,5/29/04 born @ 36.2 weeks,4 lbs.,12oz.,16"