by angelkat (3423 Posts), Sun Feb 15, 2004 01:19 pm
You never get past the what if's or the why's... I still ask myself each and everyday what would I do if something goes wrong with this pregnancy and I just have to leave it all up to God's hands. He blessed us with a special child for me Katlyne was a little girl who touched so many lives- she had a special project from the start. I would ask over and over again for complete healing for her and she was completely healed the day she went to be in his arms. Was I angry? - you bet ya, I would just go thru the steps of going to church but it really was a blur as I could not worship since I was still angry that my little girl was gone. On one hand we were blessed with a wonderful little girl and then next min she was taken away from us. But I know she is right there next to me each and everyday. I feel the sun and know that she is shinning down on me. Believe me, it takes time to heal and some never heal but never forget that you have a special baby in heaven. After many months I can finally enjoy church again and yes, I still have bad days but they seem to be less and less.
My blessings to you and your family.... I do wish for peace and comfort for you I will cont to pray for you!....
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03) and little bud (Due 09/11/04)http://www.forevernetwork.com/Archive/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=%2FArchives%2FMountHope&CFID=1089289&CFTOKEN=79068509