I admire you for being so brave. I think you are doing great in getting everything prepared given that you have a history of PE. At the same time I think that you need to relax and expect the best.
As for me, I am 27 years old and recently had my first child. He is now almost 5 months and I am almost 3 months pregnant again (surprise, surprise)! My first one was induced because of PE at 35 1/2 weeks. He was born at 4 lbs. 1 oz. and with a bit of jaundice, but other than that, it was all fine. Thanks be to God!
All I can say is that I am a bit worried about what will happen with this my second pregnancy, but I always hear that every pregnancy is different and I only hope that this one will be different for the best. It is already different, or so I think. I have not gained any weight, but my tummy popped right out as soon as I turned about 1 month. With my other pregnancy I began to get swollen and began gaining weight immediately, even before I knew I was pregnant (about 5 weeks pregnant). I dont know if that was part of it because I understand that PE symptoms begin until week 20.
Anyways, I was admitted for having BP 160s/90s and was induced right away. The maximum of my BP was 180s/90s that same day.
Now I have "whitecoat syndrome". Every time I go to the doctor, after I had my first child, I panic and I get BP readings of 140s/90s. I then ask to have a minute or two to relax and have them retake it and the readings come down to around 116/72.
I got my own BP digital monitor at home and its pretty accurate. Last time I went to the doc, my readings were 140s/90s and they only took it one time. I then came home and had my mother take it immediately after I got home and the readings were around the same, but after a few minutes the readings came down significantly, which I felt because I was no longer had feelings of panic.
Just have faith and God will be with you. It means alot to have people that support you and that share the same experiences.
I wish you the best of luck and may God grant you the best pregnancy of your life.
From the bottom of my heart,
P.s., just for fun, I dont know if you heard of the chinese lunar calendar, but you might want to give it a try. It is supposed to determine if wether you will have a baby boy or girl. It is supposedly 99% accurate. It was accurate with my first one.
Check it out: http://www.thelaboroflove.com/chart/cal.html