I am so tired of being blindsided!!!!!!!

[gossamer]

On friday I just had a horrible experience. It has taken me this long to even be able to write about it. My husband had called me and asked if after work I could meet him at his mother's house because the whole family was there, all six kids, their spouses and kids, and they wanted to do a family portrait. I was cool with it, didn't even think about it. My one sad thougth was that our little bird would not be able to be in the picture. Then when I was about 5 minutes from home IT HIT ME!!!!!!!! I didn't have a baby for the family portrait. I would never have a family portrait taken with Mary Rose.
I called my husband sobbing hysterically that I could not get my picture taken without Mary Rose.

My husband met me at the house and I had a good cry. We then went and met the family for dinner at our favorite restaurant and his mother came up and hugged me and whispered in my ear "You are loved."

It was just the sweetest thing and almost made me cry again.

Gossamer

"Before you were conceived, I wanted you. Before you were born, I loved you. Before you were a minute old, I would have died for you. This is the miracle of life. " -Maureen Hawkins

[angelkat]

Gossamer,

I am so sorry for what you have been thru. Sometimes we think we can handle things and then it just hits us at the end.

Sending you HUGE HUGS


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~T
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[josiah1112]

Gossamer,

I'm glad you mother in law is supportive. I'm so
sorry you and I and everyone that posts here have
to go through what we've been through. Sometimes,
my heart breaks over and over again and the worst
part is not having our babies around. I do believe that
our babies are in heaven, but it's just not what you go
into having a baby hoping for...
We are here for you Gossamer.


Gloria mom to Josiah 11/12/03- 12/4/03 @ 26wks pre e
Moderator- Foro Latino
Future Adoptive Mom

[for faith]

HUGS, I definately have those moments too, I'm sure we all do. I'm glad you have such a supportive family.

Lots of HUGS.

Jill
mommy to:
Tyler - 4 (36 wks, PIH)
Angel baby - 1/20/03 (11 wks)
Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC & Sepsis(preemie complications))

[julie f]

Sometimes, the grief comes out of no where and knocks us over...

Prayers of comfort for you,

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Miracle in progress... #2 is due February 2005!!!

Southern California Coordinator

[gossamer]

Yep! Once again this week God smacked me upside the head. I found out my grandpa died on Saturday. This sucks so bad.
Gossamer

"Before you were conceived, I wanted you. Before you were born, I loved you. Before you were a minute old, I would have died for you. This is the miracle of life. " -Maureen Hawkins
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