Exactaly Trish! I feel like it's one thing after another.
Now that I have more of a clear mind, Ill try to explain more..
My OB called me today bc she got the report from MFM and was just calling me to talk and check in.
She said we need to watch my placenta closely, hopefully nothing happens. But she kept using the word placenta accreta over and over again.
"People with placenta accreta this... and people with placenta accreta that"
"placenta accreta tends to be.... or placent accreta can do....."
I didn't think TOO much of it because she seemed calm and I figured it just meant bc my placenta is RIGHT over my c-section scar (my good luck- sarcastic tone)
Of course I made the mistake of googling it. Bad bad bad idea.
Its pretty much that I will or already have it, the Dr said my placenta is RIGHT over my huge vertical c-section scar and that is a HUGE HUGE risk for this.
So to mention something positive, I commented how neat it is to actually see a placenta on ultrasound bc I never remember Nolans being big enough to see.
She said, ya "Dr MFM" also mentioned your placenta being on the large side, so we will watch that too. Then something about the nasal bone being good.
Find out big placentas can mean bad things that baby has too. So I think that was her point.
I see her Thur, so I can get all my questions answered with a backround education on the placenta accreta and a more clear mind but I still had a major freakout. It seems to be one thing after another in my life.
Im sick of overly positive people telling me... stop worrying because everything will be alright because we have been through enough. Im scared, this subsequent pregnancy high risk stuff is SCARY and let me be realistic.
This baby is not garanteed bc my brother died (ya that happened last week). Geesh. I get peoples point but why cant they be as cool as you girls and just 'get it'
I knew going into this that my c-section scar was a risk
Then I knew where the placenta ended up was a bigger risk, after they told me it was RIGHT over my scar
Then this info tonight that is the affect/effect of where the placenta is.... causing placenta accreta
And let's not all forget that PIA Pre-eclampsia that we all have to worry sick about.
I sound really stressed in this post, but I am more scared than freaking out right now. I just want some luck. Just as I was starting to feel 'safe' about some things, this happens.
I love my OB and she didn't seem stressed and I went back and listened to her original voicemail she left before I called her back, I felt a sense of calm in her voice when she said...
"everything looks good, we will watch the placenta and see what comes of it, hopefully nothing"
I sure hope she's right, I just need some extra prayers. I don't want to blog this, or even tell my family this until I know real details on how my Dr feel MY situation is. My Mom has been through enough the past 2 weeks, I cant throw this on her too. The only thing that makes her smile right now is all the good news from this baby.I cant break her heart with a possible worry, at least not yet.