i definitely can relate, it is very overwhelming. I found that I focused so much on getting a baby here, that I didnt really prepare for a baby. I was so sleep deprived, so freaking scared something was going to happen to her, just so aware of the fragility of life. I have to say as I got used to a routine, over months, that it got much easier for me. I still worry so much that something bad will happen to her, but i am trying to work on managing that. I imagine this is very normal, but try to take it one day at a time...deep breaths and see your OB/counselor about it if you need to...there is nothing wrong with getting help. You have been through a lot and now is the time for you to enjoy a sweet baby in your arms. Naomi will always be there with you, in your heart, and shine through in your love for your new baby Sadie...sending you hugs.