I have a friend who lives near Atlantic and Kernan - it is nice there.
I haven't seen a counselor, but I have been thinking about it lately. I don't think that I have really come to terms with the loss of Alex. I can't even talk about him without crying and I read in one of the grief books that was a sign of prolonged grieving?? I don't know how anyone can set a time limit on grief though. Anyways, I have been dealing with my chronic kidney disease diagnosis too, so I think counselling might be a way for me to talk about everything. I have a good friend who is supportive, but I feel like I am always being a "downer", so I'm trying to talk about happy things instead. Have your friends been understanding?
Well, I don't want to say negative things about anyone, but I was seen at *****. I think most of the docs there were ok but they told me that they hadn't encountered anyone like me. I had a bad experience with one who told me that I was going to end up with a kidney transplant because "you pushed it too far". Then 5 days after Alex died I was told to get a surrogate because "it would still be your kid". I also had ***** as consultants, although I was at their Belfort practice. They were fine, but I am a little concerned about the fact that they only consult. I felt like no one was in charge or making decisions. I'm glad that you have a group that you are comfortable with. Are they good at explaining what is going on with you and baby? If you wouldn't mind I would be interested to know who you see. I know Gainesville is kind of far, but I really feel like I need someone who has worked with someone truly high risk like we unfortunately are!