(((hug))) prayers for both of you for strength and courage.
I think as moms we forget to give ourselves credit and tend to dismiss our emotions.
It is OK to feel afraid, worried, sad, angry, and in love with your daughter. Her birth came so much sooner than expected. It is a huge burden to deal with the comings and goings in the NICU, to see our little ones so helpless and feel so unneeded.
But trust me - you are needed. She needs you. And she loves you, with all of your fears and flaws and imperfections, your daughter loves you.
This board is an amazing source of strength and wisdom. And mostly, in my experience, is a wonderful resource of shoulders to lean on.
Thinking of you ...