Flori, i am so sorry for the loss of your baby girl. Your story is a sad one that many of us can relate to (very unfortunately). Its great that you are seeking support, you will need it and it will help you to lean on others as much as possible. I hope that this board can help you as much as it helped me when I lost my first baby girl. The journey is long, exhausting, and makes you dig very, very deep. But, I am here to say, if you work at it, you will find yourself in a place where you can hope again and even smile. I always say my first daughter, Elodie, is my biggest gift. She taught me so much more than I ever even could have hoped for. She taught me to be a mom and opened my eyes to the amazing bond of mother and child. She brought me and my husband closer than we ever were. And, she brought us Aylah, our second daughter, our blessing. I honestly believe everything happens for a reason, we may never know why, but it helps to continue on and fight for our dreams. By doing this, we can find that life can be fulfilling and happy again, but in a different way than we had planned.
I guess i am rambling, but keep your chin up and take it easy on yourself. You will always be a mother and in the future you will be again.
wishing you peace.
Mommy to an angel, Elodie (November 2007 31 weeks stillborn due to placental abruption, PE/HELP) and to a miracle, Aylah (January 2009, PE with 9 weeks hospital bedrest)
m/c March 2011
Expecting number 3, a boy, late March 2012!