Welcome to the boards, though we always hate the circumstances that bring new members here. First, congratulations on the birth of your baby. Second, the fact that you're only eight weeks out and processing all of this is remarkable as it I'm sure every second was traumatic for you. My experience with HELLP was during my first pregnancy. I began experiencing elevated blood pressures around the 28 week mark,was on strict left-sided bed rest at 32 weeks, and was delivering the evening I turned 36 weeks. I didn't develop HELLP, based on labs, until 12-24 hours postpartum, but my cesarean delivery was prompted by an abruption. My delivery was very, very smooth given the circumstances, but I remember very little from that point until around 48 hours postpartum. It was the time that I can't clearly remember that I was most critical. It took a long time for me to be able to think about the events leading to delivery, delivery, postpartum, and - to be honest - the entire pregnancy without becoming very emotional. I found the PF forums almost two years after my experience, and it was a lifeline. For the first time, I didn't feel like an outsider and what I found here in terms of experience, education, and support has been invaluable. I'm still here almost five years later. I hope you'll make yourself at home and read as much as you can. Everyone here is so willing to help and there's always a virtual shoulder to lean on.
I know processing all that has happened to you will take time, but the fact that you're here and talking about will help you in that process. Best wishes to you and your little guy!