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Postby uncskristy » Tue May 17, 2011 08:31 am

by uncskristy (171 Posts), Tue May 17, 2011 08:31 am

I am so ready for this week to be over with. A year ago today I woke up and realized there was blood. I was hospitalized for a small tear in my placenta. It was a couple of days into the hospital stay after steroids stopped masking liver and kidney functions that the doctors realized that I had PE. My BPs were consistantly in the normal stage. I ended up delivering Cooper on the 20th at 24 weeks, 2 days. This morning I was so terrifed to get up for fear of seeing blood again. I wish I could just zone out this week and quit reliving every moment from a year ago. I hope every May is not going to be this hard.
Kristy
Mommy of Three Boys- Davis 10/4/2007(No PE, overbaked at 40wks, 2 days),
Cooper 5/20/2010-5/21/2010 (born too early at 24wks, 2 days due to severe PE) and
Blaine 10/11/11 (35wks, 6 days, mild but quick moving PE)
Wife to Matthew since 6/11/2005
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Re: Ready for this week to be over with

Postby rosemary » Tue May 17, 2011 10:53 pm

by rosemary (2360 Posts), Tue May 17, 2011 10:53 pm

Kristy, sometimes it would be nice to have a fast-forward button. Reliving those moments are really, really hard. I am sorry for the tough days that you are having right now. You're in my thoughts. Wishing you peace and healing. (((HUGS)))
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Momma to Kayleigh 8/25/88 - 36 weeks
Elliott 8/29/04 - lost at 20 weeks due to severe PE/HELLP
Proud Grandma to Max Allen 10/19/10.
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Re: Ready for this week to be over with

Postby kerisue » Tue May 17, 2011 11:21 pm

by kerisue (623 Posts), Tue May 17, 2011 11:21 pm

the anniversary of my daughter's birth is coming up soon too. sometimes it seems like just days ago, not a whole year doesn't it? I'll be thinking of you and Cooper this week.
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born June 2010 @ 24 wks. gestation due to my severe PE and CHF
lived 25 days, loved and missed
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Re: Ready for this week to be over with

Postby uncskristy » Mon May 23, 2011 03:03 pm

by uncskristy (171 Posts), Mon May 23, 2011 03:03 pm

Thanks Ladies! I made it through the week. We took Friday off and tried to keep ourselves busy with things so I could try to avoid thinking about losing Cooper. Although my 3 year old make that difficult to do because he was determined that we had to get a birthday cake, balloons and a present for Cooper and talked about it all Saturday and Sunday. I felt like a broken record by the end of the weekend explaining the whole heaven concept to Davis. I ended up making a birthday cake and allowing Davis to blow out the candle for Cooper which felt nice so I think we might make annual thing so we can remember Cooper and remind Davis that he does have a little brother in heaven.
Kristy
Mommy of Three Boys- Davis 10/4/2007(No PE, overbaked at 40wks, 2 days),
Cooper 5/20/2010-5/21/2010 (born too early at 24wks, 2 days due to severe PE) and
Blaine 10/11/11 (35wks, 6 days, mild but quick moving PE)
Wife to Matthew since 6/11/2005
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