I don't think you are a terrible person at all and I do not take comfort in God-isms, like "God has a plan" and "God wanted this" or "Only God can ..." - I don't really believe in that type of God. I think people say stuff like that b/c they don't know what else to say and have a hard time dealing w/ ambiguity and the randomness and chaos of the universe. I am sorry for your loss. It can be really painful when the rest of the world doesn't know what to do, like you said, speaks w/out thinking, or tries to tell you how you should feel or behave. I hope you can be good to yourself!
Katie, married to Doug. Mom to Fiona Elizabeth, stillborn June 21, 2008 @ 26w; Severe Preeclampsia. Loved. Kyle James, born October 29, 2009 @ 39w; Healthy and PE Free!!! Josephine, born Nov.17, 2011 @ 39w; PE free again. Woot!