by lornarose (68 Posts), Mon Aug 22, 2011 06:50 pm
It is nearly a year since PE first knocked on my door at approx 32 weeks. I had a terrifying birth experience and anxious time in the NICU. The physical feeling after the c section, the night sweats, the bleeding-oh my, just so frightening. I was lucky to eventually take home my tiny daughter from the hospital and I don't think I let her out of my arms for those first few months. I am not traumatised anymore as my baby is thriving and brings me great joy. I am over it, the PE. I don't feel sorry for myself anymore and I don't get flashbacks, I am lucky I can put this behind me as I got to take home a baby.
I agonised for a long time whether I had the strength and courage to try for a sibling for my precious daughter. I did the back and forth that many women on this site do. I am now firm in my resolve that I am definitely, 'done with one.' I have seen lately that many women are having very sucessful second pregnancies and I am so delighted by these stories. However, my fear is not PE so much as having another section. I am too terrified to go through that again. I will try to ensure at all times that my daughter is surrounded by her extended family and that she is never lonely. She is a much loved and longed for child and is the apple of her grandparents and parents eyes. I can't begin to express the gratitude to all the women who have shared their stories with me and offered very good advice. To all the wonderful mothers who are trying again after preelampsia, from my heart, I wish you all the best and hope that you have your babies safe and well in your arms soon.
Love to you all
Momma to Emma born 34wplus 3 ,October, 2010,due to severe preeclampsia and IUGR.In NICU due to low birth weight and suspected sepsis, home after nearly 4 weeks.