by princesspurr (40 Posts), Sun Dec 04, 2011 02:18 pm
After seven years and a few days, I think I can safely say that I will never be 100% ready in my fertile years. My mom stopped getting her period when she was 36, so if I have that kind of "luck" I only have about 3 years left. Wow, I just realized I'm turning 33 in a few months.. i think I feel a panic attack coming on... My reason is mostly weight as well, but as well I havent lost any in fact I gained about 15 pounds since we started talking about trying, which kinda makes me think I am using weight as any excuse. The hubby did slip up on cd 14, but I normally have 32+ day cycles with a 12 day luteral phase (I tried to get pregnant for 2 years before Veronica so I'm kinda of a pro at this craziness LOL). So I think we will be safe this month. I am always disappointed when I don't see those 2 lines, but I'm scared to try to actively make it happen. Like I feel like I don't have the right to TRY because of my history and my weight, even though I see women much heavier then me not have a problem, and some very think women have a problem. Part of me says it has been 7 years, I have a new partner, different job, more support, better friends... it is a whole new deck of cards... but then I think it is still a deck of cards... and I have more jokers because it has happened before... but maybe this deck only have the normally amount of jokers because it is a new deck... sigh..
Val (32) & Carlos (30)
Married: April 29th 2011
Veronica Rosina, 11/25/2004-11/27/2004
Born at 26.5 weeks because of severe preeclampsia (doc says I was on my way to HELLP but not there yet)