I chickened out...

[princess purr]

We decided to start trying again in November... around CD 12 I said lets wait another month so I can start taking the perinatals and baby aspirin again because I have been forgetting. I also need to start working out again. Hopefully I will get up the nerve soon :-/

[kerisue]

I think that ttc again after a loss is quite emotionally demanding- you need to make sure you're 100% ready before starting!

[flori]

I agree with Kerisue, Val. You have to be sure you are 100% ready so take your time if you need to. Just remember that we're here for you to share your journey.

I'll be on the train with you soon after the new year.

[holly3372@msn.com]

Ha! Yep know the feeling. I've chickened out too many times now. I thought I could possibly be pregnant in November and let me say i was panicked oh boy! Then when I got my period the 1st I was both relieved and sad. I keep coming up with excuses mostly weight related to not try yet and all this time I still haven't lost any lol. I don't know but I don't think I will ever be 100 percent ready after the loss of my son. will any of us? I guess eventually I gotta just let go and go for it. I understand. Love to all xo

[princesspurr]

After seven years and a few days, I think I can safely say that I will never be 100% ready in my fertile years. My mom stopped getting her period when she was 36, so if I have that kind of "luck" I only have about 3 years left. Wow, I just realized I'm turning 33 in a few months.. i think I feel a panic attack coming on... My reason is mostly weight as well, but as well I havent lost any in fact I gained about 15 pounds since we started talking about trying, which kinda makes me think I am using weight as any excuse. The hubby did slip up on cd 14, but I normally have 32+ day cycles with a 12 day luteral phase (I tried to get pregnant for 2 years before Veronica so I'm kinda of a pro at this craziness LOL). So I think we will be safe this month. I am always disappointed when I don't see those 2 lines, but I'm scared to try to actively make it happen. Like I feel like I don't have the right to TRY because of my history and my weight, even though I see women much heavier then me not have a problem, and some very think women have a problem. Part of me says it has been 7 years, I have a new partner, different job, more support, better friends... it is a whole new deck of cards... but then I think it is still a deck of cards... and I have more jokers because it has happened before... but maybe this deck only have the normally amount of jokers because it is a new deck... sigh..

[holly3372@msn.com]

Sigh,yes understand. I know I think do I dare try again with my history/ knowing what I know now that this could happen again and put a baby through even a moment of what my son went through?! Then theres the other side where this could not happen again! Well my young friend I will be 40 in march so theres another thing lol!! Thinking of you