I wanted to add a hug and a note to say that I can relate to the anxiety and anger, and to share that I got a lot of relief from seeing a therapist who specializes in women's issues and reproductive issues. I was referred to 2 different therapists by my OB, and from reviewing their profiles and calling one, I realized that neither one was a good mesh with my needs/beliefs, and instead I went to one that I was referred to by a local mom's board. And she was AWESOME. I didn't have much support from my husband, either... very painful. One of the things the therapist had me do (in addition to affirming the whole experience, nobody had ever really done that, I got a lot of "wow, well at least you and baby are OK!" subject changers), was to write everything out, the whole thing. It took me 75 pages (it was an eventful pregnancy). She then suggested I have my husband read it -- his memory is swiss cheese, but I think for at least the couple of hours it took him to read it, he temporarily got it. That helped some.
Also, I was intially reluctant to go to therapy, and it was here on the PF forum that I got the encouragement I needed to go.
Many hugs and good luck on your decisions.