I am very,very sorry about you losing your baby girl. I lost my son Fritzy at 24 weeks due to PE/HELLP and, for lack of better words, it SUCKS! Reading your post reminded me a lot of the events that happened to me. I remember crying my eyes out and waking up the next day and being able to push fluid out of my eyes, and that was a major sign that something bad was happening. I lost 18 lbs. of fluid in three days following the delivery of my son. I was very thin before I became pregnant. It is a wicked disease and totally unfair.
I think the fact that you are young is on your side. Don't give up on having another child. Get yourself an appointment with a peri and see if they can't help you. I found out I have antiphospholipid antigen syndrome (sticky blood) last summer and was really not expecting that at all. It gives some answers as to why the placenta gave up like it did. I am now 15 weeks pregnant and I take LDA, folgard, and lovenox 40mg 2x daily. For me, it is a leap of faith and I feel entirely different this time. What happened for me is that I was making myself crazy about when to start trying-the plan was May 2012. Then, I just gave up and said "I am not going to worry about it, if it happens it happens." And out of the blue, it happened. Now that I am in my second trimester the anxiety has come up a few ticks because as I approach the 20th week, I think people will be talking me off the ledge. It is scary but so far my blood pressure has hovered around 100/60 and lower, so that makes me feel better. And I opted not to do the triple screen to keep my sanity.
I am so sorry this happened to you. Take time to heal and know there are a lot of women here that understand what you are going through and are here to help.
Shannonlynn-mommy to Frederick Otto "Fritzy"
born May 6, 2011, became an angel one hour later
Severe PE at 24 weeks to the day
Gavin Walden born 8-4-12,lovenox, folgard, lda, prenatals. PE and HELLP free.