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Happy birthday, Gracie

Postby flori » Thu Mar 15, 2012 05:27 pm

by flori (225 Posts), Thu Mar 15, 2012 05:27 pm

Husband and I celebrated by getting up super early and driving to the other side of the island to watch the sunrise. After it came up it we drove a to a little turn out along the coast and released a dozen pink and white balloons. Something about watching them all fly away broke us and we stood there crying for a while. I whispered a happy birthday message to her as he was taking pictures and then we went to breakfast. Later I'm going to bake cupcakes in some princess paper cups I found at the party store.

I've been crying quite a bit lately. I thought I had been handling things so well up until a few days ago.. maybe I'm hormonal from AF coming. *sigh* What a sad way to spend what should be such a beautiful day.



Happy birthday, sweet Gracie. How I wish you were here with me and I could give you all of the birthday snuggles you deserve.
Flori, 30
Mommy to Gracie- born at 25 weeks 03/15/11, 11 inches, 1.1lbs, and absolutely beautiful. Became my sweet angel the next day.
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Re: Happy birthday, Gracie

Postby sam10 » Thu Mar 15, 2012 08:31 pm

by sam10 (1437 Posts), Thu Mar 15, 2012 08:31 pm

Happy Birthday to sweet Gracie! It's beautiful to do something special, but so very hard to not break down. I think that the first birthday is a milestone, also for us BLMs, that deserves to be celebrated. Thinking of you, your husband and especially of your precious Gracie. Sending you hugs.
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Henry (1/1/2010-1/7/2010) - forever loved and missed; severe PE with Hellp; partial placental abruption, classical c-section at 25.6 weeks
Matilda (Nov. 2012, born at 35.4 weeks) - severe PE


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Re: Happy birthday, Gracie

Postby kerisue » Thu Mar 15, 2012 10:20 pm

by kerisue (623 Posts), Thu Mar 15, 2012 10:20 pm

I can't believe it's been a year! How I wish that Gracie was here with you on her birthday- (or maybe that it wasn't her birthday and she'd been born when she should have.) I'll light a candle for Gracie tonight.
Mama to Millie
born June 2010 @ 24 wks. gestation due to my severe PE and CHF
lived 25 days, loved and missed
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Re: Happy birthday, Gracie

Postby flori » Fri Mar 16, 2012 02:38 am

by flori (225 Posts), Fri Mar 16, 2012 02:38 am

Thank you so much, ladies. It sucks being in this club we can't quit.

I wanted to mention all of the signs I think she sent us today:
- on the way home from breakfast we saw a really fat rainbow! I told my husband that I think she was telling us that she was giving us her blessing to make her a big sister. I took tons of pictures of it.
- We went to Costco later in the afternoon and as we turned the corner into the main aisle, there was this beautiful little girl who looked just like I would have imagined her to look standing in the main aisle, just staring at us. She ran off a few seconds later.
- I looked at the time this posted and it was at 5:27pm, the same time Gracie was born. I totally did not plan it. I have no idea what time zone the forum or even I'm in.
- Hubs was cleaning out his wallet earlier and came across a fortune and the Chinese word on the back was "daughter."

Ramblings of a madwoman? Probably, but it sure helped ease today's pain.
Flori, 30
Mommy to Gracie- born at 25 weeks 03/15/11, 11 inches, 1.1lbs, and absolutely beautiful. Became my sweet angel the next day.
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Re: Happy birthday, Gracie

Postby mom41 » Fri Mar 16, 2012 08:15 am

by mom41 (20 Posts), Fri Mar 16, 2012 08:15 am

Happy birthday, Gracie. What a beautiful way to celebrate - on your beautiful islands!
with all the positive signs .. ! Hang in there, birthdays and due dates are the hardest ..
(((((HUGS))))
son 4/2004 subchorionic hematoma but full term, healthy
1/2011 stillborn twins (IVF) due to severe IUGR/ pre-e 23+3 wks, chronic htn
Jason born 3/21/12, 35w 6 days, healthy 4 lbs 15 oz, 18 in, no pre-e but oligo/iugr, 1 week of NICU for hypoglycemia and mild RDS, doing great ! (thank you labetalol, lda, lovenox and my drs!)
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Re: Happy birthday, Gracie

Postby MomTimesThree » Sat Mar 17, 2012 00:56 am

by MomTimesThree (570 Posts), Sat Mar 17, 2012 00:56 am

Happy Birthday to your sweet Gracie. What a beautiful way to celebrate her birthday- different that I know you would have liked- beautiful none the less. I have no doubt about those signs. Our angels are wise beyond their years and seem to always know when their parents need a lil' "Hey Mom, Hey Dad". The bond between a parent a child, no matter how short the time on earth, is stronger than any force in nature.

Keepin' ya in my thoughts,
Lauren
2008-Our Baby Girl, PTL born too early at 30w6d, Fought so hard... Forever Loved & Missed
2010- Lil' Bro, Pre-E at 29 weeks... Induced at 36w6d, Born 37w
2012- Lil' Sis, Super-imposed pre-e at 25 weeks, PTL & GD at 35 weeks, Evicted 36w
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