I am so sorry. This disease is terrible. There are just no words for what you and your family have been through.
There are many who will listen to you and grieve with you here. You are not alone.
2001: DD, no HTN or Pre-e (Ignorance was bliss)
2003: DD, pre-e, severe placental abruption at 33 weeks, crash c-section, she and I are lucky to still be here
2007: 2nd trimester loss (13 weeks), likely due to clotting behind placenta seen on ultrasound
2008: DS, pre-e again, 7 weeks bedrest, c-section at 37 weeks.
Now: Chronic HTN, and resigned to the fact that I will never be quite the same. Find my own experience harder to talk about as time passes, but repeatedly ask pregnant friends and coworkers about their blood pressure.