I'm sorry for blabbering. And sorry for stressing here. But I hope that you can read through my randomness and offer your thoughts. I hate asking for advice or validation, but man...I am worried and I am just reaching out there into cyberspace for someone to hold my hand. See? I am begging. And yes, I am in therapy too.
I have felt like crud for this entire pregnancy. Very different from my first pregnancy, where I felt pretty great after the puking subsided at 14 weeks. Well, until pre-e and HELLP at 32. But between those two points, I felt pretty fabulous.
Anyway, my point is that I feel crappy every day. Not a day goes by that I feel normal or fully functional. And I am wondering if crappy will equal a repeat experience with pre-e? Or if a general feeling of being unwell might be related to stress/depression/ptsd, or if my real, honest-to-goodness symptoms are a sign of things to come?
I just passed the 32 week marker. My bp has been 90s/60s-110s/70s with occasional spikes, none of which impressed my docs because the spikes didn't repeat. Had 24 hr urine, a baseline many months ago and a more recent one in the last couple of weeks. Both clean.
My blood pressure and urine are fine. My doctor seems unconcerned. I know I posted before about feeling like a hypochondriac, but really, I have symptoms consistently. Every day it is inevitable that I will feel like I have the body flu (not the above-the-shoulders kind). Heavy muscles, zero energy, aches. And just about every day I have a headache right in my eyebrows, behind my eyes, and around to my temples. My ob said sinus infection. However, I have no drainage, no stuffiness, and I have never had a sinus infection or allergies.
I do have nosebleeds every day. She says that is because in pregnancy, the membranes are swollen and more sensitive.
I am swelling, but nothing like last time. It is the worst in the morning when I wake up. My face is swollen (looks like I have been crying), the wrinkles are gone from my hands, and the bones in the tops of my feet disappear. By night time, the swelling lessens and my parts are mostly back to normal. I don't have pitting edema.
I've had random back pains that are in weird areas, but that come and go. Sometimes laying down makes it worse. Back pain was my clue to pre-e the first time around, so that makes me pretty paranoid. But again, I have gone in and all of my labs are good.
So I am not even sure what I am asking, to be honest. I guess I am just wondering if I should anticipate that this will turn in to pre-e? Or if I should just keep on trying to plug away because this pregnancy is just really, really uncomfortable? And can low, normal bps just turn the corner and get worse all of the sudden?
I just feel stressed. And very isolated. I needed to reach out. Now, to hit "submit"..........