I am pregnant for the 9th time. Of my previous 8 pregnancies, 6 were mcs and 2 were stillbirths. With both SBs, I had severe PE (the 1st time was early onset). My DH and I just adopted a beautiful baby girl who is now 5 wks old and we were NOT TTC. When I was 5 days late I thought my AF was just off b/c of the baby coming and lack of sleep. Needless to say I was shocked & terrified when the PT was pos. I was recently diagnosed by a team of DRs in France who were conducting a study on gene mutation NLRP7. This study shows that women affected by this mutation suffer from recurrent molar pregs & losses. My DNA was shown to have the gene mutation. What this means is that it's not entirely outside
the realm of possibility that I could carry & give birth to a healthy baby, but it's about 1 millimeter on the side of possibility. To make things more interesting, my OB had me get an early US to check viability. I was 5wk 4 days preg. The US showed 2, that's TWO gest sacs & yolk sacs!!! It was too early to detect HBs, so I have to go back for a follow up on Aug. 27th. All I can say is I have to laugh b/c otherwise I'd cry.
With my history alone, we have grounds to terminate, but I just can't do it. I guess I choose to believe in miracles. There's part of me that is more terrified that it will actually work this time & I will end up with 3 babies under the age of 1 yr. old! Our daughter & these twins would be exactly 9 mos apart. It would sorta be like having triplets. My DH is struggling with the whole thing. He has seen me through so much, all the time fearing for my life. I'm also afraid to tell any friends or family members whats happening b/c I fear they'll judge me... judge me for getting preg again with my hist and judge for not terming. We lost our last baby (boy) 1 yr ago on Aug 23. I said I could never do this again... am I crazy? Am I totally insane for attempting this yet again?? ...Feeling helpless & alone right now.