Bittersweet

[holly3372@msn.com]

Hi. Friday was the anniversary of our son Benjamin's death. It is 2 years now, 2 years one by. It feels like forever ago, yet like only yesterday all at the same time. It is ironic that friday was also my doctors appointment, I am 16 weeks pregnant. At first I thought to change the date but my husband and I thought that maybe it's meant to be maybe we will get some good news. We did, my bp was good, baby looked great , all measurements so far so good and we found out we are having a girl. I know I should be happy and I mean I am I am so grateful for any good news bevause we didn't get much in my last pregnancy. I know it's normal to feel the way I do. I am just filled with so many emotions. I am grief stricken all over again this week remembering everything and missing my son terribly. I try to stay calm and positive anything to keep this new baby going and growing but oh how I hurt. I didn't realize how it would feel being pregnant again after losing your baby. It truly is so very bittersweet.

[m]

Yes, it is so difficult to be pregnant after a loss. I can really relate to how you are feeling. So many mixed emotions. But, it's great that you got good news at your appointment!

[kerisue]

yeah, two years for me too. sometimes it still feels like yesterday and sometimes it feels like a dream from long ago. thinking of you.

[princesspurr]

It's been almost 8 years for me, and somedays it feels like yesterday. Hugs to you

[wooleybear]

i feel for you and hope you get through this pregnancy with lots of peace. my sudden loss was very recent so i am not on the block to start thinking about getting pregnant again, but it does scare me to death to do so. im sure we all experience these thoughts, you are not alone.....



hugs and peace!