by firstname.lastname@example.org (478 Posts), Sun Aug 19, 2012 10:38 am
Hi. Friday was the anniversary of our son Benjamin's death. It is 2 years now, 2 years one by. It feels like forever ago, yet like only yesterday all at the same time. It is ironic that friday was also my doctors appointment, I am 16 weeks pregnant. At first I thought to change the date but my husband and I thought that maybe it's meant to be maybe we will get some good news. We did, my bp was good, baby looked great , all measurements so far so good and we found out we are having a girl. I know I should be happy and I mean I am I am so grateful for any good news bevause we didn't get much in my last pregnancy. I know it's normal to feel the way I do. I am just filled with so many emotions. I am grief stricken all over again this week remembering everything and missing my son terribly. I try to stay calm and positive anything to keep this new baby going and growing but oh how I hurt. I didn't realize how it would feel being pregnant again after losing your baby. It truly is so very bittersweet.
Benjamin Spider Reeves born 4-28-2010( 1lb 6oz 26 weeks to severe pre-e and Iugr) we lost you after 4 long months in the NICU. You fought so hard,and were so brave.Our first baby .We miss you everyday and love you forever xo
Expecting ,dreaming, and hoping for our baby Girl sometime in January 2013