Today marks 10 months since we lost out daughter. Things are so much better but the pain I feel is the same. I miss her so much and what her life would have been. I look at all the clothes I bought for her and all the ideas I had for her room. I had an early ultrasound in November around 16-17 weeks and was told I was having a boy! When I went to get my first growth scan we were shocked to find out we were having a girl!! I was so so excited and just couldn't stop myself from buying the cute dresses, bows etc.. I now look at those things and imagine how my life would have been without all these tears... I sometimes feel that the pain will never stop.
We are ttc again and feel defeated every month I don't get pregnant... So it's like an emotional roller coaster I am pretty sad with the holidays coming up & wishing that she was here and that I could change what happened. I would have rather given my life for her.
I have always gone home for thanksgiving but this will be the first year we will stay here and spend thanksgiving with my husbands family ( I'm not looking forward to it) but no I am going to be ovulating around thar time and I can't miss it by being at my parents house. Last 2 times I ovulated I was at my parents house and it is just not very comfortable... Lol
How are you ladies getting through the holidays? How do you deal with trying again and not getting a positive right away? I know we have only been trying for 3 months but it seems like just forever wanting to have a baby in my arms