My husband and I are tyring to have our last baby. My first two girls, now 2 and 9 yrs old, were both born at 28 weeks at 1.5 pounds on the same day (yes, they have the same birthday). We would like to try for boy since I am now 36, soon to be 37 in a few months. This will be our last one. My family thinks I am crazy and that it is not safe for me to have a third child b/c it is hard on me and the babies. My first one was born early due to PE - they could not keep my bp down. But, my second pregnancy was a little different. I did have PE, so they put me early on a bp reducing medicine, but around 27 weeks, my bp was still rising and I was spilling a ton of protein. So, they hospitalized me. I was told that I would have to stay in the hospital for the duration of my pregnancy. I was so stressed out and wanted to go home so bad after just one week. Then, at that one week mark, I had a placental abruption and she was born with in minutes of me ringing for the nurse. Both are healthy and doing well, but we almost lost my secoond one after 2 mos in the NICU due to late onset of Group B Strept. I may be pregnant now (now sure yet) since we have been trying using the ovulation kit and I feel nauseous this morning. Anyway, I thought to come back to the site to get feedback from those who have gone through what I have and see what your thoughts are. Am I being selfish about this? I mean, although my kids are healthy, they went through alot while in the NICU and some of it was not pain free. Not to mention, I was so broken hearted the entire time - my life stopped until they were brought home. Should I put my self and a baby through this knowing what I know? I am not sure anymore...all I know is that I would love to have just one more and hoping for a boy. Thanks in advance for your feedback. Happy New Year!