You are so right. What is crazy, is the doctor I had before I WAS comfortable with. He seemed knowledgeable enough for me to stay here on the island with confidence rather than attempting to get high risk coverage in the states when I could back when I was 5 weeks. Then came week 23 and he panicked, which sent me into a panic! I thank the good Lord for finding this new doctor....of course he constantly warns me to be OFF the internet, but its just too tempting

I feel blessed to only have real panic for a total of a week or two this pregnancy. I know this ugly illness can get a hold of me rapidly, but I am feeling so good. It's amazing what a good doctor who is reasonable can do for a person. I stopped liking blunt doctors after the death of our son who was born 24 weeks. His doctor came into my hospital room the day I had to have him, and said he will die, he may not be alive long enough for you to say goodbye, and she left. Well, he made it 23 hours. Her shift ended a few hours after he was born, and her partner came in and discussed options like changing a few things (I can't think of it exactly but it was like a shaking incubator or something) and he lived 20 more hours. I'm not saying he would have made it, but I now know NEVER to underestimate my child! The bad part is, when her shift began again, she stormed into my room (in the ICU mind you) and demanded to know why I made the decision, as if I was supposed to just accept imminent death. And, while I need openness and honesty from my doctor, brutal bluntness is now something I cannot accept. Especially when the words are spoke before seeing anything. This doctor has been honest but willing to try anything feasible....and LISTENS! I know he knows more than me, but being heard is rare nowadays in the clinical field. We do so much research we may think we know more about something than we do, but we should at least be heard, and if needed, corrected on misinformation.