Feel soooo unsure about how to feel...

[princess purr]

I know there is that two year window/seven year window... and I'm 8 years out now. I also got divorced and married to someone else.... I'm giving myself a 50/50 chance because it is just all so different now... and I'm either going to get PE again or not get PE again.... Just so frustrating not to have a crystal ball that will tell me if/when I will get pregnant... if the baby will be okay... if I will be okay... I know no one has that, but it just seems like for the most part people see two lines, start making great plans, and then have a healthy baby... I want to badly to be excited about trying, and everything that goes with it but I'm truly terrified. Since so many things are different, and I will be on LDA and heparin when I do get pregnant I feel like I have a better chance now then I did the first time, but I'm scared... and I'm so bad with the unknown and waiting... I guess I just needed to vent!!

[kaxy]

I hear ya. All we can do is hope for the best and choose caregivers we're comfortable with! Good luck!

[kerisue]

During the year I was actively trying it was SUCH an emotional roller coaster- all those things you're thinking, wondering, worrying about. I'm so glad you're with a supportive spouse and are emotionally strong. Good luck!!

[Rubbie78]

Vent all you want. It's emotions and feelings and they come and go. 'After surviving HELLP, it's hard to not wonder about things that are out of our control. I do not know about the 2yr/7yr window. I hope you're having a good day today.

[MomTimesThree]

It's sooo frustrating not having a crystal ball, and so many things are unknown. One thing I took comfort in was knowing that, even though everything was totally out of my control- what was firmly in control was myself. You go into your next pregnancy a completely different person. There is no naivete. You know your body better than any MD you'll ever see and you are so keenly aware of what can happen. You understand so much more about the disease and are a completely different partner to your medical team in the process.

Whatever your decision, and whenever you choose to make it I wish you the most amount of peace possible.
Lauren

[flori]

I hear ya, mama. We aren't even actively trying yet, but I am freaking out! Had a looooooooooooooooong cycle 60ish days and AF finally came during our vacation, but it was a relief to have it. At day 35 I started to get worried and by day 45 I had convinced myself that I had lost my chance at trying to conceive naturally because my cycles were totally off now and that led to even more negative thought, haha.

Anyway, I'm excited you and Carlos are trying! And good job on WW!! I read your updates on FB and am so proud of you.

Fun's over for me. I managed to stay the same weight during our three weeks away from real life, but now it's time to get serious. 25 more pounds by June is the goal.

[MomTimesThree]

For what its worth, we conceived #3 on CD 40 something!

[princess purr]

When I got pregnant with Veronica I o'd on cd37! This cycle was bust, didn't o until cd31, we had good timing and I swore I felt implantation cramps 9dpo but af showed up 13dpo and my lp is normally 12 days. So, on to the next cycle. My cycle tends to be 32 days normally, with o on cd 20... so this first 15ish days of the cycle feel like a total waste LOL

[MomTimesThree]

Aw boo. 13 days is a great LP though!

Sending baby dust!