Hi there, I am brand new to this site/forum community so I hope I'm doing this right.
I have a BEAUTIFUL 16 month old daughter who was born after a very "adventure-filled" pregnancy & three days of labor via c-section. I am now 17 weeks along with our next sweet bundle of all things wonderful & I feel like every day I am losing my mind just a little bit more. So far, so good! Yet, if there's even a strange twinge or anything, I'm completely panicked. It is like I am just waiting for something to go wrong. I had multiple 8 days stays at the hospital through my pregnancy with my daughter..and nooow? I've been fine! Granted, I'm not to the point in this pregnancy that I was in that one when things started to get hinky & I was diagnosed with preeclampsia..but I just feel like a total nutjob. I don't know how to just be "normal pregnant"..I don't know how to not freak out over having preeclampsia again and in a twisted way almost wanting it because it was MY "normal"? (I can't believe I'm actually typing that!) I am just a bundle of emotions and sheer panic half the time...well..when I'm not chasing little missy around. I feel like I just don't know what the heck I'm doing! We were SO BLESSED to have our sweet girl arrive healthy albeit a bit early! Why would I want to go through all of that again?! And in the same breath I'm saying, OH PLEASE NO!
I'm a mess.