Hello and welcome.
I am so very sorry you had such a hard time with eclampsia hitting you right after birth. But I am very glad your doctors acted quickly and provided proper care.
I am not sure if anybody told you, but having a traumatic birth or postpartum experience makes you more prone to post-partum depression. I am not a health care professional, but from what you are describing it sounds like you might suffer from it. But to be sure it might be best to seek professional help. Postpartum depression is something that also women suffer from who had very normal births.
I am very glad that your parents are here to help and you are finding ways to cope. I found counseling to be a lifesaver during my pregnancy and also after giving birth.
PS: I will move your post to the forum "Ask the Experienced", as you might get more readers and hopefully somebody else will chime in. Sorry I only saw your post now
MC 3/2009 and 3/2011Henry
(1/1/2010-1/7/2010) - forever loved and missed; severe PE with Hellp; partial placental abruption, classical c-section at 25.6 weeksMatilda
(Nov. 2012, born at 35.4 weeks) - severe PE
Our pain has been put into words, placed into empty cradles, to remember that all our babies lived, that they mattered and always will. - Field of Cradles http://www.fieldofcradles.org/