I've posted on these forums before and continue to follow everyone on them. I delivered my son 4 years ago at 29+ weeks due to severe preeclampsia and have since been diagnosed with hypothyroidism (Hashimoto's). My husband and I have decided, with the blessing of our MFM, to try again. Well, fast-forward to last November 2013, I got pregnant. The morning I discovered I was pregnant, I was ecstatic! Then that evening, and almost everyone after that for the next few weeks I was sleepless and worried/panicked about my health and the health of the baby. I ended up miscarrying around 8 weeks, and was told by the MFM to start trying again after one full normal cycle passes. Well, that would mean that I should start trying in a couple of weeks. I feel almost schizophrenic in my deep desire to have another child and my deep fear of having another one. Why can't things be simple? So, since the pregnancy anxiety, I've started on Prozac which should kick-in in soon, and it was suggested that I start therapy. The MFM said ttc and first trimester on Prozac is safe, and we will re-evaluate in the late stages of pregnancy - that is, if I do become pregnant!
I guess I'm posting this just to sort of vent and find others out there with these same struggles. I find this to be a very silent struggle that not many around me would understand.
Thanks for listening/reading!