Thank you Kris. I know it's just pregnancy hormones plaguing me for now. What I can normally handle while not pregnant seems to get an exaggerated reaction while I'm pregnant. I recognize this and try my best to deal with it. My late husband died in my arms and I handled that with grace. I've been in a 95 mph car accident, no biggie, I survived. I've had 4 reconstructive jaw surgeries myself and have had bad reactions to general anesthesia myself but once again, I'm here to talk about it. I've lost a baby at 6 months gestation due to PE and have had 3 other miscarriages as well as survived labor with my two girls. I feel I have great strength on the average when I need it, just not while pregnant or not while things are mimicking what we went through right before we lost Ben. But I know I'm not the first or only woman to have a "crying jag" during pregnancy and have it last a week. I'm feeling better, surgery was successful and is over. I had my pressures up pretty high for his surgery (159/95) and then came back down to 120/77 a few hours post op. I watched at one point as my dh's pressures set off the alarm bells while he was still coming out from under anesthesia because they had risen to over 178/104 and his pulse ox was going down. Fear of being widowed again but yet remaining calm and not assuming he's stroking out right there proved ok. The nurses reset the machine to check again and I was able to talk to dh to bring him around. If he could talk to me, he was ok. My last husband died in my arms two days after two hospitals and 5 doctors told him he was not sick, it was all in his head after reading he was manic depressive. I do not hate the medical community, but I am a strong advocate when it comes to my health or my families. I ask a LOT of questions and show how much I do know already about the situations we have been through. I know I have good reason to worry but handle it by becoming educated about the situation.
Today we had OB appt, followed by youngest's 15 month shots and check up followed by dh's PT session for his knee. Oh, and oldest got out of school early so we have been on the run all day. I think I am ready for my nap! lol
Love to all the mommies!