Having Anxiety

[sweetiesuzy]

Hello Ladies!

I hoep you are all doing well and plugging along in your pregnancies. I think of each of you everyday and say prayers for all of us.

My recent issue is anxiety. I am having trouble with anticipating delivery. My labor and delivery was so traumatic and difficult with Sam. At first I could handle the induction, then it got so overwhelming my contractions never ceased. I had one continual one for over 2 hours. They weren't even recording on the monitor. Then the mag started and I couldn't move or open my eyes. It was as if I was locked inside my body and I thought I was going to die. I could kind of hear what was happening around me, but it was all very surreal. Then I pushed very hard and he came really really quickly. I guess my pressures were 160's over 130's. I know women here have had higher than that, and I am SO scared about seizures. I have been convinced that I will die this time.
How is everyone else coping? Am I just going crazy thinking about all this? Has anyone else had this problem?

Suzanna

DS 3/25/95
DD 10/26/01 stillbirth
DS 12/30/02
AND ~ Peanut edd 8/6/04

[mada]

Hi Suz,
You poor thing. I know how you feel. My birth w/ Sam was the Same. I had a continual contraction as well and I was like literally swearing at everyone.(NOt one of my finest moments). When I was prego with Ben, I of course was just waiting for the pre-e to hit....it never did and my labor with him was great. My water broke 4 days before my dd and I was in active labor for 6 hours pushed for a half an hour and that was it.
YOu could be totally fine with this pregnancy. I know though when you hear all these stories and all the things that can happen, the prospect of it all can scare the crap out of you. YOu know to stay on top of your health and you are very educated on all the signs and symptoms. This puts you in a very good place. I will be praying for an uneventful pregnancy[:)] You have been such a wonderful support to all and I just want you to know anytime you feel nervous or anxious....I am here. Absolutely email me whenever!! Hang in there and remeber, so far everything looks great[:D]

Mada Harpster

Sam 6-29-00 36weeks P.E.
Ben 11-03-01 No P.E.

[twolfgram]

Hi Suzanna,

I can't completely relate since I had a C-section with Jonathan and Erik's delivery was pretty good except for the epidural not working. I'm having a different kind of anxiety. I have times when I'm so scared I'm going to lose this baby I just break down, like now. My DH just keeps telling me it's going to be ok and I shouldn't worry. I'm only 8 weeks and it's going to be a long 9 months if I can't get over this. I don't know if I can handle losing another baby. Sorry to no really reply to your post, but I needed to vent.

Therese Mom to
Jonathan - born 10/4/95 at 28 weeks due to HELLP
Angel in Heaven - Erik 12/20/02 due to placental abruption
And "Baby dot" - EDD 9/11/04!

[sweetiesuzy]

Oh no - Therese - never apologize for the feelings you are having. My pregnancy with Sam was a VERY long 9 months. I was terrified of losing Sam also. It is normal for you to feel this way. I am not sure how I made it through honestly (sorry I am not helping) but you WILL make it through. Anniversary times and triggers are the hardest. Talk to people you trust about how you feel. This is a new pregnancy and it will be different. You are strong and I have faith you will endure through all of the emotions. I'm so sorry.
BIG BIG HUGS
Suzanna

DS 3/25/95
DD 10/26/01 stillbirth
DS 12/30/02
AND ~ Peanut edd 8/6/04

[twolfgram]

Thank you, Suzanna. That helps. I'm thinking there are a couple of things going on - I'm tired, for one. That always puts me in a crying mood. The other is that I'm usually on Prozac and stopped taking it when I had the +++ HPT. The nurse at my peri's office said to let them know how I'm doing off of it. I may tell her it's not going so well. I'm crabby and want to cry a lot. I feel with the lovenox shots, we have a good chance for a positive outcome, it's just scary! Thanks for the hugs - right back at ya!

Therese Mom to
Jonathan - born 10/4/95 at 28 weeks due to HELLP
Angel in Heaven - Erik 12/20/02 due to placental abruption
And "Baby dot" - EDD 9/11/04!

[deerhart]

my first delivery was very similiar to yours, but my second delivery was a breeze on the other hand.

It also was an induction, but since I was laready soft, dilating, and having contractions on my own they did not have to pump up the pitocin like mad, I avoided mag all together, and it toook about 1/3rd the time to delivery him. He even came out faster then Alex (2 pushes versus Alex getting stuck for 40 minutes on my pelvis and having a HUGE bruise on his head)

Erin

Mommy to Alex and Mason

[paljane8]

I am so sorry for your anxiety both Suzanna and Therese. You have every reason to be extra frightened. I wish there was some crystal ball to see the future...but, each preg is different. I wish you both a easy and uneventful delivery. Until then you are in my thoughts.

Nancy-35
dh-34
ds-8yrs
dd-7yrs
Scott-born 05-14-99 @38 weeks-PE
Janie-born 05-12-03 @37 weeks-PIH, small for gestational age (oligo and low blood flow)
http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/4/4lbs/

[angelkat]

I'm not sure what to think or feel.... In April it will be 1 year since Katlyne went to be with Jesus and the whole nightmare of having to dil at 25 weeks keeps coming back to haunt me. I'm scared to buy ANYTHING and told my DH please tell family members do not send anything until the baby is home safe and sound. I want to be happy but it's very hard to be. I have wonderful doctors this time who understand and do nothing but High Risk preg but still the fear sets in time and time again.... (sorry this wasn't a response just knowing how you are feeling)

Hugs
~T

Mommy to
Drew(13)
Ky (11)
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03) and little bud (Due 09/11/04)http://www.forevernetwork.com/Archive/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=%2FArchives%2FMountHope&CFID=1089289&CFTOKEN=79068509

[twolfgram]

T -

I totally understand how you're feeling, and we're due on the same date! I really want to start planning, decorating, buying things, but am scared we won't get to use it all! For me it comes and goes. I find if I'm tired, I'm really bad, so try to get lots of rest, which for me, working FT and having an 8 year old (and the DH [;)]} isn't all that easy to do. I look at how many of these wonderful ladies have had experiences similar or exactly like mine and have had children after them and that helps. Just know you're doing everything you can to bring this baby into the world! Good luck and feel free to e-mail me anytime!

Therese Mom to
Jonathan - born 10/4/95 at 28 weeks due to HELLP
Angel in Heaven - Erik 12/20/02 due to placental abruption
And "Baby dot" - EDD 9/11/04!