It's so normal to have feelings of failure when your body fails in PG. But remember, you have no control over what's happening right now, your body is going to do what it is going to do. The best thing for you is to relax and take deep breaths and think positive. It is nice to have a 5 lb goal, but it's not the end of the world if you don't make it. My Max was a 25wkr at 1lb 3 ozs. He is now 18 months. He is a little developmentally delayed, mostly in speech, but he is making great progress. His health has been excellent! No long term worries.The toughest part for us was the NICU stay, almost 16 weeks. But I highly doubt you'll be looking at that. Your baby is almost 32 weeks gestation which is a great goal to hit. And even though she is growing slow, she is still growing. Just remember, that if by chance she has to come earlier than expected, it really isn't your fault. The docs are going to do what is best for her. It will be hard, but I am sure you are strong and will make it through.
A lot of hospitals will tell you she won't go home until her due date, they just do that to set expectations low. Then a week later they will start saying she will go home at 37 weeks gestation or so. But they will all say the same thing, she needs to be eating on her own (by bottle or breast), breathing on her own, and regulating her temperature (which usually happens around 4 lbs). Most likely, she'll go home at 36-37 weeks gestation (from what I have seen) but don't be surprised if it's sooner, sometimes these little fighters surprise all of us. I know my son did!
DH, John (36)
Max, 1/20/03, 25 wks, 534g. (IUGR), severe PE