I wish I had some words of wisdom or comfort for you but I don't know what to do myself, I will keep you in my prayers. Have you been to a support group yet? I have gone once and it was somewhat comforting.
My due date is approaching as well, October 25th. Nothing about the past 3 months have been easy but, since the calendar hit October 1, it seems to be even harder. I can't get out of my head all of the things that I "should" be doing right now - washing the baby clothes, putting the finishing touches on the nursery, walking around rubbing my belly... Instead, I am putting flowers on my son's grave, it's just so wrong.
Take care of yourself and do whatever you need to do to get through the days.
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26 weeks due to severe pe