Hi my name is Stephanie.I found out i was pregnant on November 12 2005 i
|Hi my name is Stephanie.I found out i was pregnant on November 12 2005 i was so happy i could not believe it,it finally happened me and my husband had been trying for 2 years.Well everything was fine untill around my 28th week,I had started getting a headache just about every other day,but i did not think anything of it and then i started to swell i thought that was normal but my mother told me if it wasn't gone when i wake up in the morning to call my doctor.I called my doctor and he told me to come in when i got there the nurse weighed me and i had gained 14 pounds in a week so she said that i had a lot of fluid she then checked my blood pressure and it was 190/111 so the doctor sent me to the hospita.I had to stay over night so they could do a 24 hour urine test to check for protein they also monitored the baby all night and she was doing fine.The next day the doctor came i and said there was some protein in my urine but not enough to worry about and my blood pressure seemed to go down while i was laying down so he sent me home on strict bed rest and to come in to the office to see him once a week.I went home and everything was fine untill that next night i just didn't feel right and i had a little bit of pain in my stomache so i paged my doctor and told my to go the hospital.I got to the hospital and they did another urine test and monitored the baby all night and also gave me a sleeping pill.Well the next morning the nurse came in my blood presssure had gone and the babys heart beat was low and i thought maybe it had something to do with the sleeping pill she gave me she called my doctor and came in and did a ulrasound and he said the baby was fine that she had a little more fluid around her and that meant she was getting plenty of oxygen but he knew that she was going to have to be delivered within the next 24 to 48 hours so he sent me to a bigger hospital that would be better equiped to take care of her when she was born.They sent me by ambulance it was about 100 miles away before i left they gave me magnesium to prevent seizuires on the way there it makes you feel terrible.About half way there the nurse try to get the babys heart beat with her doppler and she could not find it but i did not think anything of it because sometimes it would take a while so we finally got to the hospital and they put in a room and there was about 10 doctors all around me and i started to get scared one doctor was doing an ultrasound and i never looked at the screen but my husband was beside me and he knew something was not right because she wasn't moving at all but i didn't know untill the doctor told me that was very sorry but my baby had died.It was the worst day of my life it was such a shock it felt like someone had ripped out my heart i wanted her so bad.They then induced my labor and started given me blood and something for my blood presssure because it keep going up.The placenta had broke away from the uterine wall and i had started bleeding inside thats why i needed blood i ended up getting 6 pints.A little later they broke my water because i had to have her vaginally because i could have bleed to death from a c section because when you have preeclampsia your blood doesn't clot like it should.The next morning at 8:45 after 3 long pushes she was stillborn the doctor asked me if i wanted to see her right when she was born or if i wanted them to clean her up and bring her back i said yes to bring her back when i said that i didn't know if i wanted to see her at all i was so scared so they came in and asked me if i was ready for her and i said no maybe later.My parents and my brother and his wife and my best friend seen her before me and was telling me how pretty she was and who they thought she looked like they alll said she looked like me except my brother and his wife said she looked like my husband.Later on that night about 2 in the morning i decided to see her the nurse brought her in and gave her to my mother and my mother layed her in my lap.She was perfect she was so tiny she weighed 2pounds and 14 ounzes and she was 16 and a half inches long with a lot of hair.I only held her for a little bit because i started to shake i was so scared and didn't know how i was going to make it.I wish now that i would have held her more.I was able to get out of the hospital 3 days after she was born we had a graveside service for her the next day.That was one month ago and i am doing alot better i am taking a blood pressure pill but i think the doctor will take me off of in 2 weeks when i see him because i checked it today and it was 122/71 so its better.There is not a day goes by that i don't cry for her and think what if.She was my first child and i don't know if i will ever try again.I am so sorry for anyone who has gone through this.|
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