Where do I start with this very long and very personal journey. I am a
Where do I start with this very long and very personal journey. I am a two time pregnancy induced hypertension/Eclampsia victim. I still however battle with my blood pressure and although I am not on meds I very closely monitor my salt intake as well as my diet and exercise.
It all started with a perfectly "Normal" yet a very moody pregnancy that I thought was perfectly okay. I had had 3 prior miscarriages and was just thrilled that I had actually made it almost to term with my first born Zachary. I had went in for my 33 week check up and the doctor noted that my blood pressure was a little high but nothing too alarming, however I was swelling just a little, he was not to alarmed because I was almost at the end of my pregnancy and had excellent weight gain and everything else was fairly routine, so we decided he was going to bring me back after the christmas break to re-check everything, and for now just sort of take it easy. Well I had been the "DEVIL" during this pregnancy anyway so my husband and I thought it was normal when I was extremely tired and snappy over christmas (to the point to where I didn't even care to open gifts) I was just tired, I had a check up that following Thursday so no big deal. So, the week goes on and I called in to work because I just felt horrible and tired and moody, all normal pregnancy 3rd trimester things right, WRONG! Thursday comes and it's time for the doctor, I did all my normal stuff at this point I was seeing spots and extremely swollen, to the point to where my shoes didn't fit, still not alarmed. I walked into the doctor and the 1st nurse takes my blood pressure, the 2nd nurse takes my pressure, then they take me back to the room and the doctor takes my blood pressure, and says well we're having a baby! I said huh, I am not ready. Well I get to the hospital and at this point my blood pressure was 180/143 and rising!! The doctor, after much plea from me, says okay we will try to deliver vaginally, but if your blood pressure doesn't come down,and one more thing goes wrong, Ihave to tell you the odds are against you. Nedless to say my house of cards came falling down, my beautiful son was born @ 9:30 on December 29th. He was 34 weeks and 2 days, and he has had some problems as any preemie. I however was not okay, even after all of the extra my blood pressure would not go down, I had to be on a magniesium drip for 3 days after he was born and I almost had to send him home with out ME! I was on Nefical (blood pressure meds) for almost 4 months, and Crazy. Shortly after all of this I GOT PREGNANT AGAIN!!! I was not happy, because I Was on birthcontrol, and I knew I had a 65% chance of a repeat Ecclampsia/PIH fit happening again. AND IT DID! Worse this time, by 20 weeks with my daughter my blood pressure was starting to go up, luckily I had PHENOMINAL high risk doctors and an ob who monitored me 3 days a week starting at week 15. My daughter had tons of pictures from early on, however even with all of that It didn't prepare me for what I faced. Alyssa was in trouble and no one knew it. Alyssa's blood flow was slowly being cut off from her because of my blood pressure, however none of the "monitors" picked it up because the only way you can tell is to have a level 3 sonogram to measure out her growth, and they only do that every 4 weeks and at the last sonogram she was fine, so we all chose not to do any steroids on her lungs. Well, we had already did an amnio because we knew we needed to deliver soon anyway because my blood pressure was beginning to spin but not quite out of control yet, and the amnio was going to determine wether to do steroids or not and we had already determined her lungs were not okay and she needed more time... so at week 32 (which seems to be my magical number) they took her measurements for what would have been the 3rd time, @ 28 weeks she was almost 4 lbs and @ 32 weeks she was still 4 lbs and had not grown at all, i watched as they measured my baby and did it again and again and again, then I saw the doctor come in (never saying anything to me because you NEVER want to get a woman who's blood pressure is already high worked up) all they would say is we just want to get a better picture. My wonderful doctor sat me up (because I was alone in the room) (my DH had to work and since I had been on bedrest for a month now, my sweet and retired father was taking me back and forth to dr. appts, all the while my 1 year old was running around too. I had to eventually call family mbrs to come in and take him for the day so I didnt get up at all knowing from my experience with my son, if I didn't follow every word my doctor said I could lose my daughter, I had already survived 3 very bad miscarriages and I knew I couldn't handle that so I listened.) He looked at me and said honey, you know I only want what is best for you and your baby, and you know I love my babies, and we know her lungs are not developed fully because of the amnio however that can be wrong, however if we don't take her today, I cannot promise you she will make it through the night or what the weekend will bring. I almost lost it, and my sweet and wonderful dr. said baby I will put you in my car and drive you to the hospital, he hugged me and said you know I only want want is best, don't cry she is going to be okay there is a wonderful nicu here and you are going to come back for your 6 week check up and bring me a healthy baby who is going to be as pretty as you. (now you see why i love this man so hahaha) well we went to the hospital my ob met us and we did an csection and my beautiful daughter was born @ 33 weeks, her lungs were okay, however she as does my son has respitory problems associated with her prematurity, she also has a few learning disabilitys and does things a little slower that some of the kids who are younger but were due at the same time. I decided to have my tubes tied because my blood pressure had gotten to 280/217 by the time i got to the or , however it did come down after the anesthesia. and I didn't have to be on the magnesium because I had no protein in my urine, just the pih this time. I am very aware now of the signs of Pre Ecclampsia, as well as High Blood pressure in women, both of these are all too common and women are dying because of them. I am an advocate for awareness because i am both a victim and a survivor, I am just glad that I had two wonderful doctors who knew what to look for and because of that and the grace of God my kids are survivors as well. I am also a huge advocate for March of Dimes and am a team captain at my job. This has been one of the hardest journeys of my life and the scariest, when someone looks at you and says I cant promise you what the weekend will bring, it is the most eye opening and scary feeling in the world. you have this child that you love with all your heart and you don't want anything to happen to her, you think well what if I had done this or not eaten that or did this. However no one knows what causes it, but awareness lets you know what the symptoms are that way you and your baby are safe. I hope this helps someone.
Ethan will be turning 3 at the end of this month (October). The month of October always brings up some scary memories and emotions for me... I never thought I would have a difficult pregnancy or labor. After all...