Hi my name is Heather and just lost my little boy 4 |
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Hi my name is Heather and just lost my little boy 4 weeks ago to Preeclampsia. A disheartening disease that can effect any woman at any time! Preeclampsia is still so new to me. I have tried to read as much as possible and get my self educated about this disease. I had just come upon my 24th week and went to the doc, on a Wed. My blood pressure was a little high and I had 2+ urine. The doc looked at me and said we are just going to send you over to the hospital for observation over night. Well when I got there I was a mess. Scared and nervous not knowing what was really going on. They started sticking me and hooking my up to machines that made all kinds of noises. I thought why are yall doing all this? Every 20 minutes or so my blood pressure machine would go off and it kept creeping up, well then that scared me. The doctor came up to my husband and said that we are going to have to send her to another hospital where they came take better care of mom and baby. That's when they started me on the MAG!!!! Wow, I hated that stuff. That is the worst drug ever. In route to the other hospital I was still scared thinking am I going to die or what is going to happen to my baby! When I arrived in Greenville, I had a team of docs that surrounded me, one was checking the baby, the others were asking questions. So late Wed night they nurses got me comfortable with medicines and fluids. They next day (Thurs) still being monitored closely and still on the Mag, I would drift in and out of consciousness. It made me so tired. The doctors came in and spoke with me about a plan , my BP was being controlled and they thought that they could hold me in the hospital for 4 weeks on bedrest. We thought "How am I going to do that?" But I said I would do anything to hold this baby in my as long as I can! Well Fri rolled around- 4am, the doc pushed that door open as hard as she could, she woke me up and said we have to induce you. You urine has spiked to a 6+ and it is getting dangerous for you and baby. So they started right away inducing me!! It took about 10 hours for me to get to 7cm. They wheeled me into labor and delivery where I was able to push him out. Thank god I did not have to have a c section. He weighed 1.2 lbs. They wheeled me back where I passed out from exhaustion. I finally got off the mag 24 hrs after delivery. It took me almost a day to get the energy to move and see my precious baby!! When I finally went to see him, my eyes filled with amazement! He was alive and was just so darn cute. He was hooked up to machines that monitored his heartrate and breathing. For the first 24 to 48 hrs the docs said that he would go through a "honeymoon" state and do well and then after that take a nose dive. Well he didn't, he did so well. The docs were amazed by him. As he was doing well I was recovering. I started pumping my breast milk, I knew if that was the only thing that I could do for him by all means I was going to get him the best nutrition. They nurses said that it might be 3-4 weeks before they started him on the milk. Well 3 days after his in the NICU they started him on my milk. I was just so excited. I thought "wow" he is doing extremely well. He was not on Blood Pressure medicine like some mirco preemies are, just insulin to regulate his sugar.He had an ultrasound of his head and had no bleeding. That was just amazing to the docs to be that young with no bleeding. They had to give him so medicine to close up his PDA in his heart. I thought well we are going to all make it! He was doing well. Fri night at 12am the doc called and said that your little boy has fallen ill. He is very sick and they started running tests to figure out what was wrong. I thought "Oh my gosh, what is wrong?" Do I need to come to the hospital. The doc said no there was nothing at the point that I could do and they started treating him with antibiotics. For they next several days he had some episodes. One day he would be fine and they next was just horrible. Monday I walked in NICU to check on him and hang out with him, his levels were all over the place. They had to bag him several time, he just kept dropping his stats. He started not peeing on Mon. Well that was concerning. They found out Monday that he had a fungal bacteria infection. It was spreading to his organs. His kidneys first. Over the next 48 hours he was just hanging on to dear life. The docs told me that once his kidneys start shutting down the rest of his body will start. They were giving him blood transfusion and all kinds of medicine to help his little body fight this horrible infection. He just could not fight it anymore. The infection moved into his blood stream that made him septic. My husband and I had to make to worst decision in our lives to take him off life support. We both got to hold him and talk to him and told him that he was going to a better place. Not to be scared. He passed away in our arms. As a mother this is the most heartrending thing that I have ever had to do and do not ever want to go through that kind of pain again! My little boy is now our angel watching over us and taking care of his parents. I hope in the future I have healthy pregnancies and babies. I hope that one day they will find a cure for this. As a woman, I never dreamed of having a complicated pregnancy. I didn't know of such disease. It would be nice if one day they put a stop to all of this and help women deliver healthy babies. |
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