It's always hard to start, but seeing my 2 year daughter running around calling me
It's always hard to start, but seeing my 2 year daughter running around calling me mammy pushes me to sign in and share my painful experience with everybody and specially with moms who's babies are still in the NICU.
After two years of marriage, my husband and I thought that it was time to start a family.
Being pregnant is the biggest responsibility I ever had in my life. I was always very worried about my little baby, so I spent so many times at the doctor's office complaining from morning sickness, headache, and some cramping here and there. All was under control until my feet and face started to swell really badly. I remember I woke up one day and didn't recognize myself. I immediately called my doctor. The nurse was like maybe you are working a little bit too much, you need to slow down, and remember to keep your feet always lifted. I tried to do what she said knowing that I was not working hard, and I was doing everything I needed to do.
All these symptoms started when i was 25 weeks pregnant. So I'm still not that heavy. A week after, I saw my doctor and boom the bad news. My blood pressure was very elevated and I had so much protein in my urine. I remember that I went straight to the hospital. They told me that they will admit me because I have preeclampsia. For my good luck, a day before, I watched a TV show about preeclampsia so I know what I should expect and at that day my journey started.
Unfortunately my blood pressure was so high. It reached a point where the doctor's couldn't get it under control, and that it was the time for a c-section. I was 28 weeks. My baby was only 1lb, 12ounces. She came out crying and that was the first good sign. They took her to the NICU for further management. Seeing my little baby with all those machines was terrifying. But I have to say she was a fighter since day one. We went through so much, bad and good news as well. She stayed in the hospital for 74 days. The major medical challenges she had was a heart murmur and tested positive for CMV. She failed her first hearing screening for the right ear, and so many other issues. Overall we all were very lucky and blessed because being that mature might cause her more severe medical complications.
Taking care of a preemie was something very scary for me, so I tried my best to learn everything from the nurses while she was still at the hospital. I had so much patience and strength at that time, I was by her bed side every single day from morning until evening.
Now she is a very normal kid. Her weight, height and mental development are the same of her age. She passed her hearing exams for both ears. On the other side, she gets sick very quickly especially in the flu season. She's on asthma medication because she wheezes whenever she runs around a lot, and she develops a cold very fast. Other than that, she is a very happy baby. She goes to a ballet class and she's loving it.
This letter is for every couple who has a preemie and for any mom who has preeclampsia.
After surviving a very traumatic first pregnancy with a nightmare delivery (30 hours of magnesium-induced hell, ending in an emergency c-section) and even more debilitating recovery, one would think I was DONE having children. Let's be ...