One Month ago.....seems like forever

Posted On Monday, March 21, 2011  by Tricia

I wanted to share more of my story, it will be one month today that I had to deliver my baby girl Rylee. I think about her often, and miss those little kicks in my belly. I would have been close to 27 weeks now. This whole experience has really changed the way I veiw life. It has positively changed me. I truly believe Rylee was my angel, she saved me so I could continue living with her brothers and rest of her family. The first week after losing her was really rough, I couldn't make sense of anything. I wanted a daughter so bad and all the plans I had with her were soon wiped away. leaving the hospital without her was a gloomy experience since I had to do it twice. I was readmitted after coming home for a few days. My blood pressure was high agian and I was experiencing shortness of breath. I was put back on mag. I had the worst headache in my life the whole day following. two days later I was able to go home with blood pressure meds. Luckly my blood pressure stabilized after four days and I didn't need it anymore. I have high hope for becoming pregnant agian, I know I have to be patient and it will happen when it is suppose to. I am doing pretty well considering what a short time it has been, but honestly I feel like I didn't lose her.....she saved ME! I have an appointment with MFM soon and I will get some questions answered about what my options are and how do we handle another pregnancy. I would like to share my condolences with all of the parents that have lost a precious angel, and that is exactly what they are, I pray that you all find comfort with my story and begin to heal. God bless you all!

In loving Memory

Rylee Leann <3