Our own angel "Kimberly"
Posted On Thursday, August 11, 2011 by Girlie
On October 2010, I was so happy when I found out that I was pregnant with my first child. It was so easy for me because I didnâ€™t experience thingsÂ other women did, like morning sickness or nausea and other uncomfortable situation that a pregnant woman always encounters.Â Before that, I donâ€™t have any medical history that need attention or can cause problem with my pregnancy. I go to my OB regularly for my prenatal and had all the laboratory test done and happy to say that it all went right and they donâ€™t see any problem with me and my baby.Â So I thought I was so lucky to have normal pregnancy. We were so happy waiting for the baby to come out, especially when we found out that itâ€™s a girl.
And then on May 18, 2011, exactly 30 weeks after we found out I was pregnant, I had severe chest pain and when they brought me to the hospital my blood pressure shoot up, 180/100 (my normal BP all throughout my pregnancy always range to 90/70 or 100/70).Â And then theyâ€™ve done laboratory tests and found out there was protein in my urine and that there is a problem with the flow of blood in my placenta.Â And the doctor told me that I had severe preeclampsia but the baby was so small (2.8lbs) that they wanted to prolong the delivery for 1 or 2 weeks more.Â That day, they already admitted me in the hospital to monitor my condition.Â Few hours after, my OB told us that they need to do caesarean operation since vomiting is not a good sign for me and the only way they can treat me properly is for me to deliver the baby first regardless of her age and weight.Â They told me that the chance of surviving is much higher if they can treat me and the baby separately. And on May 19, 2011, at 2:15 pm, baby Kimberly was born. I was so happy that she was alive and the doctor told us that there are some tests they need to do especially that she is premature, but it was normal in her case.
Four days after giving birth, I was discharge at the hospital but baby Kimberly stayed in the incubator. We were happy waiting for the moment that we can bring her home.Â Everyday we were in the hospital to visit her and bring her milk.Â
As the day goes by, the doctor told us that they expect her to gain more weight but it didnâ€™t happened and her blood infection is getting worse.Â 11 days after, they transferred her to the Nursery ICU and undergo blood transfusion.Â Her heartbeat is going down and for four days she fights for her life.Â It was so painful for us especially for me being the mother to see your baby in that condition.Â She was so small and yet she suffered much than I do.Â The doctor told us that her body cannot take all the medicine and procedure and because of what happen other complications arise and even if she survive it will be difficult for her to have a normal and healthy life. But we donâ€™t want to give up that easy, she is our princess.Â At that time we know that there is nothing we can do but to keep on praying and hope for miracle.Â But her condition is getting worse and it so painful for us when the Chaplain told us to give up, that itâ€™s time for us to surrender her to GOD.Â And on June 3, 2011, at 12:20 noon, the most dreadful day of our lives, baby Kimberly passed away.
Up to this day the pain is unbearable and yet we have to accept what happened for our princess to rest in peace.Â We donâ€™t want her to suffer more seeing us losing our will to live.Â I have to take care of myself for me to be physically and emotionally fit when the times come that God will give us another chance.Â I wanted so much to have a baby but after all that weâ€™ve been through, Iâ€™m more afraid and worried now, but all I want to think of is that we have our own angel in heaven who will pray for us and look after us. And our angel name is â€œKIMBERLY.â€
Ethan will be turning 3 at the end of this month (October). The month of October always brings up some scary memories and emotions for me... I never thought I would have a difficult pregnancy or labor. After all...