HI,,, Im so glad that some people on this board feel the same way I
|HI,,, Im so glad that some people on this board feel the same way I do as far as trying to get over what happened... I got pregnant in October of 2001 after trying for almost a year.. I went through a series of tests and was put on fertility medication and I finally got pregnant with my first child..What an experience! I knew I was pregnant when i was just feeling tired and nauseas all the time and that lasted throughout the nine months of pregnancy> I was put on Zofran to control nausea and vomiting. It did help but not 100%. The chaos all started about week 25 when i started getting what they called bh contractions and i was just told to take it easy and of course I didnt.. I went for my bi weekly checkups at that point and my bp started to elevate 140/90 that held for about a month then all hell broke loose when bp started climbing to 170/100 with +1 protein. I was then sent o see a high risk specialist and was told to take it easy an the baby was looking fine. Well by then I was 27 weeks and go to my ob 1x a week and the high risk 1x a week..That woud get anyones bp up.. well this went on for weeks and at this point everytime i wound up at the doctors office i wound up in labor and delivery right after because bp was high severe weight gain and protein in urine .. I took eight trips to labor and delivery b4 everything was said and done.. Who told i had preeclampsia and told me not.. I though i was losing my mind .. well i was at week 35 when i had gone for a bp check and of course it was up 200/112 so back to l&d and i wasnt happy... I get there bp came down to 150/95 but protein was +2.. So i was admitted for a 24 urine test.. I was so upset because i couldnt take anymore,, the 24hours were up and i was sent home and i was to be on bedrest.. the next evening i started experiencing what i thought was bh contractions and i was waiting for them to subside but they didnt so I called the doctor and he told me to go in where i would be monitored . My contractions were so severe that i could barely walk.. I was literally climbing the walls with all the pain... THe PA comes in and examines me and says i wasnt even dilated that i would probably be sent home with tylenol because the monitor wasnt picking up contractions..Well I thought she was crazy... It turned out the monitor was broken ,my contractions were a minute apart and the results of my 24 urine came back with a +4 protein and my liver functions were high.. THe doctor decides to do and emergency c section under general because surmised the placenta had ruptured and he was right... The baby was taken out within a minute and was rushed to icu because he had respitory distress...Me on the other hand was lucky to be alive because another minute both the baby and i wouldnt have survived. I was out on magnesium for two days and what a horrible experience... I then went into severe postpartum depression and am still coping with it.. some days are easier than others.. Im luck to have a healthy 5 month old whos also colic to add to everything else... I just feel i cant gforget what happened and i dont know why because i feel like i should,, But i feel that a piece of me is gone for good and i donthink i will ever be the same person again... Im tired of people telling me that i should be thankful but they dont understand what i went through.. there are days when i still cry about what happened and wonder why why me... I am in good health never smoked or drank.... thanks for listening...What are the chances of this happenng again? does any1 know|
Ethan will be turning 3 at the end of this month (October). The month of October always brings up some scary memories and emotions for me... I never thought I would have a difficult pregnancy or labor. After all...