Thanks for the support I need it so badly right now. With the one year anniversary coming up & hearing about other people's happy & healthy pregnancys. I am happy for them but in a way so much sadder for myself that I will NEVER get to experience that excitement and ease. It just seems like a very hard burden to bear for the rest of my life
. My sister just seems to think that if I'm pregnant it's ok now but it's not I still miss my first baby and wish every second that she was here with me. I don't even know if I will get to keep this baby
. I want to be positive but it's so scary & hard. I feel that no one even acknowledges her bc she was so small or she never came home with us but she was real she was a huge part of my life and always will be I wish everyone could understand that.
I thought that this year would be better but yesterday we had a family member lose there 7 month old baby. He was healthy but it was a drowning accident by the babysitter. Seeing the family and trying to comfort the mother has brought so many emotions back we were preg together and our kids were due only 3 weeks apart but we had our princess too early in January and they had there son on time and enjoyed him for 7 months. I'm feeling so overwhelmed with all the emotions especially it being the so close to the anniversary/birthday of our baby
I guess I'm just trying to get out my feelings probably need to get an appt with my grief counselor soon.